imma emotional bitch
fuck it.
read hanqi blog.
it sucks feeling like a loner in 3e4
i might be laughing and being happy there
but it sucks when the laughter ends. it suck when i dont noe where to go
it sucks when the people u care for is all in other class
atleast they do have friends there.
everyone in 3e4 has their own friends. their own hang out ppl
i cried on the first day on sch.
i didnt wan go. i didnt wan be there sitting alone
i didnt have anyone to sit with the moment i step into class
it suck to the core.
almost every subject i sit alone larh.
but wat if i say i love it? am i lying to myself?
why must i be the only one in 3e4?
why others come in pair or so.
no nazera. its good for u. be a loner in 3e4 and u will pay attention
u will top the class with ur stupidity
i wan go run out of class with hanqi and slacking at the hall
i dont wan to be running to her class instead. i wan to have her to be with me
and not only recess and lunch.
i wan to have fronia in my class to share our problems and horny ass out
i dont wan to be horny-ing alone with weird atmosphere
i guess i find it hard to understand and adapt to new changes
i wan to have rachel in my class to talk abt lastest things
i dont wan be buying magazine all alone and sharing it to no one
i hate it.
i wan emily to be the funny darling that loves to smile
be the one who teaches me maths. be the one whose there wtih me
i dont wan to be seeing her only after sch.
i wan to be with darling aisyah and laughing at her silly act
i miss the laughter we shared. when we disturb u
i wan to be with her to coach me through malay
i dont wan to be sitting beside her only malay. its not fun
its not a class where we could make noise.
i wan to be with regina
be the one who i wasted time fighting with for dunnoe how many months
be the one coaching me on sex and all
be the one who teaches me alot
say sorry everytime before its too late
i miss sitting beside wilfred. hornying and gossiping.
i miss him explaining what i dont understand
i miss not being able to sit beside him to copy
english. i dont understand one shit. whose there for me to even ask.
i miss sitting at 1e1 place.
with allan and jacob there
copying during spelling test and throwing aeroplane
now we are like outsiders.
AQ airline. Pork airline.
shitty things.
miss every single 39 of u.
i swear if i could rewind the time,
i would kiss u all.
i miss being the chairman of the class
being scolded for coming late yet got off easily due to being chairman
i miss being scolded coz of noisyclass
i miss telling mrs kee how good 2e1 is when she wasnt here
i miss being scolded by mr razak and mr ting for not reporting on the broken things
i miss being told wat to do
i miss everything.
i miss having to shout to the class to say news
i miss adding to the noise level yet asking them shut up
hyprocrite.
everysingle one of them
without even one, its not a class
without tsiyu, its very quiet.
i hate my life
i wan to be with 2e1.
be with the class that get caught and called down to foyer
i wan be with the class that never fails to play a fool
to burn a curtain paper and be teachers pet.
that loves sexuality education. that runs arnd like a maniac
all the jokes we shared. it all ended i guess
i dont wan be in a class where im an outsider everytime.
running away when theres free time
to make sure i wont feel lonely.
although i run away, my clique aint free to be running with me
i stink. what if i fail.
what if the tchers hate me more for slaking too much
god.
its been 6 days im with 3e4.
it feels like a year.